the serenity prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

ecclesiastes 3

For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.

I made phone calls today to several Nurses Training Offices to inquire about training slots, requirements, etc. At the end of my calling spree I ended up disappointed. I would have to wait for at least two months before slots are available again. My top 1 priority hospital has the entire year of 2011 filled up. "Try again next year", the voice on the other line said.

I die.

I know this is only the beginning and if I keep telling myself that it is passion that drives me and it is a calling for me to become a nurse so I can't whine and be all sad on my first try right? But I can't pretend that I'm not. So I'm going to whine first and then lateron let go of it all because it will do me no good so I might as well find another diversion while I wait for two months. What saddens me now is that I'm going to be IDLE. I feel unproductive when I'm not doing anything. I think I'm going to go crazy. I'm thinking of volunteering even if it exploits my services and the horror stories you hear about volunteering...I need to weigh my options.

I guess I need a lot of patience and a lot more of that PASSION that I keep talking about. I know I meant to be here and it may not be an easy start but I will get by with a lot of help from optimism and FAITH. SO. HELP. ME. GOD.

Things to do:
- Write an application letter
- Update CV, write a biodata, and resume