As of now...

The journey of a struggling nurse continues...

Since my last update I've undergone Basic Life Support Training, ECG, and Advanced Cardiac Life Support (I'm already certified!). And then I took my IV Therapy training at Dr. Fe Del Mundo Hospital, which I am not done with yet because I still need two blood transfusion cases. We're supposed to be on call in case we're needed.

And then there was Red Cross training. I already have Adult Basic Life Support from Philippine Heart Center but since I want to be trained for child and infant CPR life support, I took it again at the QC Red Cross. I also took the Standard First Aid training because well, it's basic for every nurse and my first aid was pretty rusty.

The training was rigorous. It went on for a week from 8am to 5pm and it was stressful in so many levels that I lost sleep but it was worth it. You know being a nurse is hard because you have to continuously train and study and lose sleep but you know what makes it worthwhile? The people you meet along the way.




For our last day with had a Mass Calamity Simulation and those with medical conditions were asked to be "victims". I ended up being covered with fake blood made of brown sugar, coffee, and cornstarch. YUM. Haha! Just kidding, I didn't taste it but it did smell sweet! Sort of like the syrup they put in taho.

The journey continues...

the serenity prayer

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr

ecclesiastes 3

For everything there is a season,
a time for every activity under heaven.
A time to be born and a time to die.
A time to plant and a time to harvest.
A time to kill and a time to heal.
A time to tear down and a time to build up.
A time to cry and a time to laugh.
A time to grieve and a time to dance.
A time to scatter stones and a time to gather stones.
A time to embrace and a time to turn away.
A time to search and a time to quit searching.
A time to keep and a time to throw away.
A time to tear and a time to mend.
A time to be quiet and a time to speak.
A time to love and a time to hate.
A time for war and a time for peace.

I made phone calls today to several Nurses Training Offices to inquire about training slots, requirements, etc. At the end of my calling spree I ended up disappointed. I would have to wait for at least two months before slots are available again. My top 1 priority hospital has the entire year of 2011 filled up. "Try again next year", the voice on the other line said.

I die.

I know this is only the beginning and if I keep telling myself that it is passion that drives me and it is a calling for me to become a nurse so I can't whine and be all sad on my first try right? But I can't pretend that I'm not. So I'm going to whine first and then lateron let go of it all because it will do me no good so I might as well find another diversion while I wait for two months. What saddens me now is that I'm going to be IDLE. I feel unproductive when I'm not doing anything. I think I'm going to go crazy. I'm thinking of volunteering even if it exploits my services and the horror stories you hear about volunteering...I need to weigh my options.

I guess I need a lot of patience and a lot more of that PASSION that I keep talking about. I know I meant to be here and it may not be an easy start but I will get by with a lot of help from optimism and FAITH. SO. HELP. ME. GOD.

Things to do:
- Write an application letter
- Update CV, write a biodata, and resume